Two Things

Two things I have noticed this week, both I am keen to share with you all and get some feedback back on :).

So first of all, Ive been interested to know, who do you see in the mirror. Like when you wake up and stare at yourself in the mirror, half-drunkingly do oyu see yourself. Like me for example, every time I stare in that mirror I dont see the happy self I think I am. Instead I see this worn down tired half-boy/half-man and wonder what happened to the guy that I think I am. You know, I see memories and scars in my face, invisble/visible and I reflect silenty every day on the things that I regret and the thing I have to which I am thankful. So kinda need to reprhase my question a little bit, What do you see in your face when you look in the mirror, what memories, fears, laughter do you see, what has shaped you, what hasnt. Im quite curious to know.

Scondly, my second point of note is how strange it is to meet someone one day. Its unreal to be able to walk by them everyday and suddenly out of blue have an urge to wave hi, see how they are going and generally smile in ther gneral direction. How can we wak by them every day and then suddenly cannot do a week without their support and advice. Its recently happened to me and this girl at work and its been interesting to watch it develop as quick as it has. All these similar interests, (to qualify for best friendness it seems, that at least in my world, decent music taste ikes you.) and long talks, makes me wonder what would have happened had I not met her.

To statisfy your curiousty the girl is a student photographer at the local TAFE. In the time I have gotten to know her, she has struck me as intelligent, caring, kind and understanding, not quick to draw judgement. I really do admire people like that, those set of traits is fantastic and I am lucky to know her, and my other closer friendswho to share those traits. I think what I find most appealing about her is the fact that we share alot of view points, or rather, have this “common” ground where everything kind off goes. You can grab your issue throw it on the table and neither of us will judge you for it, rahter make effort to understand why person Y or X might have done that - help you undertand and perhaps move on. Although Id love to go into more detail! There is simply none, but Im sure I will write more about her as time passes. Until then, I tip my hat to you until next week with hopefuly some news that isnt delivered at 1:33am in the morning. It be nice.

Tip my hat of to you by the way A.H. - that is if you read this today :P

Cheers all,

Toine

Inheriting Words

I find that every now and then, stuff gets little cluttered and busy. Ill be proud to say that I recently sat through two months of a very busy time and have since been utterly silent to you all.

Its not that I havent had the time, it has more to do with finding and understanding my experiences, processing and transforming them into whatyou as readers can read. Sometimes your just so busy with life, you merely  have no energy or enough time left to reflect on your experiences and thoughts. Even know I could write about many things, university, work, life-balance, girlfriend, cousins, experiences so much to talk about and yet very little idea of what to define as the centre of this post.

While I ponder this thought, I am taking a break and taking a shower…..

and with that done, lets discuss choices I have made.

Interestingly, this year with New Years now a good solid two moths behind me, I’ve find that my New Years Resolution have been somewhat challenging to form and in that respect adhere to.  I am a very judgemental, stubborn and hot-headed person by nature. This year I have been trying to reduce my constant badgering of other people and give them a shot at being what they want me to do. I can proudly report that for the larger part  I have fauled to accomplish this to any degree. Although, I certainly tried - to say I did so would be an utter lie.

I have also decided this year I am going all in and unrelentless and with determination am going to complete my uni degree while keeping my work commitments and lifestyle commitments in a sperate bag. Interestingly this has been sucessful but my body is suffering alot and I’m not sure if this insane plan is actually going to suruvive another 10 months, lets just hope it will :) On that note, though, next year Ill just be working full-time and spending alot of time catching up on those projects I havent had much luck with this year.

I am determined in some way, shape and form to start my novel at some stage this year and once I am thoroughly happy with each chapter I will post it up here for the scrutiny of all you loyal readers :) Any critical feedback will be appreciated and a link should soon appear on this blog that will indicate you to the place where the chapters will appear. A prolodgue is in development, but Chapter One will be compelted and finalised first - which I supsect will take hte larger part of two months cause its the first chapter :P Saying that though, when the first few chapters are ready, the site I have intended to laucnh for 1.5 years now will be finalised and actually made public. I am guessing that people should prepare for a June 2009 launch as I am preparing for this.

I have also quit games for now, I do enjoy them alot but at this stage of my life I need get responsible and socialise with people as well as meet my responsbilities at university, work and other hobbies. Although actually lets call it more of hiatus, cause Im sure that Im going to play them agian. Just not till 2010. Which suits me fine, because I got a bloody book to write eh? Hehehehe, its going to be interesting not playing for a year :) But a challenge nevertheless.

I should point out here that I adore my girlfriend a fair bit :)

Anyway, I know I ahve been silent. But things are beginning to sit on the tracks again and routine is starting to firm out of the cracks of the old. Although I outlined very little of my choices here, I personally believe that the others will appear over time as I reform and reshape to the person I wannt to be. By the way! Did I mention! Ill be joining the ranks of amateur photographers soon :) So that should be lots of fun =D

Back on track, although I wanted to make some sort of grand impact with my post and impress you all with the depths I have changed, I simply cannot at this time. I am merely still to imcompetent to understand myself and my feelings and I hope you can forgive me for that. For now all you have is my word, that I Tom have changed and am going to be providing you with my life the only way it counts. Utter and total truth, even if that means I gotta get naked and stuff 0O;

-Tom

Today is hte 21st and I dread tommorow, the day after that aaand the day after that.

Why?

Cause its Christmas and people go crazy and buy a shit load of food that will take over three days to be downed and do other crazy things like buying presents for other people. Its all a bit ludicrous and crazy and silly and I seriously pray that I wont by doing *too* many extra hours for Woolies to keep up with all you customers you. SO DONT BUY TO MUCH D: I HAVE A FAMIlY TO GO HOME TO.

No really, I do.

ANYWAY.

Next week is the week after christmas and before News Years. So New Years Resolutions and Christmas Gifts relevations will be revealed then. Keep an eye on that!

Peace.